went for choir practice with a lot of unwillingness yesterday... firstly was due to the bad experience i had the previous choir practice in feb and i am still fearful of having the same experience again... secondly i am very tired after a day of sch dun feel like going for practice i just want to go home and sleep... the lastly wasn't feeling very well.. had this feeling that i am going to fall ill...Nevertheless i went... to me then was that i do not have a choice at all... i had to go becoz it was an assignment to serve in the choir this sunday... it was a encounter with the Almighty during the practice and i am convince that it is not another assignment but a service render out of the heart that seeks to please the Lord and the finally its not about how i feel when my focus is to please him the wall of fear of getting out of my comfort zone could be overcome....
woke up today feeling very sick and i was really sick... wanted to call lena and tell her that i am sick and get someone to replace me for the little india trail today.... did not want to fang yiwen fei ji and leave her to do trail alone with alot of unknown ppl so i went.... my throat was really sore and i got no energy for trail at all... so as i was on my way to the sch i prayed for kind teacher to follow us along the trail and i prayed for a gd and small class... and i realli believe God hears my prayer and answered my prayer... as we walk into the hall filled with kids i walk over to lena and ask her which class should i take and she simply point me to a class... and that is the smallest class... onli have 18 kids wth me and 17 kids wth yiwen and a realli friendly and kind teacher following us during the trail... this is the trail whereby my energy level is lowest and i nv really project my voice but the kids was so cute and they simply kept quiet... also i had the help of yiwen... she was looking out for me the whole trail and i could have some rest time during the trail... some parts of the trail she even do the talking for me... and of course we ended up wth very good feedbacks for the students and the teacher... i tot it was rather ironical... this is my 2nd little india trail and i did not prepare for the trail so mainly what i spoke during the trail was my memory of the last trail and i was bluffing my way thru during the bus briefing to the students and the teacher comment that i was knowledgeable but the previous trail i did more solid sharing and i think i did a better job but the teacher comment that i could share more facts wth the student and said that the was more that i could do....
Faith
8:59 pm
IntroDuction
struggling in a cruel world...
hoping that one day i will emerge victorious...
