Tuesday, March 13, 2007
i think i am having post camp syndrome now...
i woke up at 6 today and realise i dun need to be awake...
perhaps it is becoz my stomach is not feeling well lah....
the first thing i did was to check my hp and i reply a sms that was sent to me at 1am....
haha... and i woke my friend up from his sleep...
this is the 2nd day in a row that i did that....
wanted to go and see the girls who are having drill training today at 10 but in the end i was half dead and i did not go...
i hope i will not wake up at 6 again for the next few days...
i am missing my parents after 4 days....
i went to camp on fri and they flew off to china on sat....
6 more days before they comes back....
although i really enjoy the house without my mum's nagging...
for the past weeks she has been at home and she has been nagging and scolding...
and i think becoz she was bored at home so she felt very frustrated and get angry very easily...
i hope the trip will allow her to relax...
this sissified friend of my bro and another gal friend of my bro gf came to my house to play majong today... and it seems to be like watching drama... the gal like this sisified guy and the guy like the gal... but another friend of my bro also like the gal... the gal like the sisified guy at first but tot the other guy was better and more man but later realise that she prefer the sisified guy as he was better educated and more gentle... i tot all these only happen in drama.... than the guy is willing to do anything for the gal... and the guy will rather choose to lose the majong game to break up his tiles to let the gal win... lol...
and the guy will try to impress the gal with tricks like he can noe what majong tile he got without flipping it over... as he can feel and tell u the tile... and he can perform magic tricks....
lol.... and in the end the gal wan to eat pizza and he gave a pizza treat....
well at least i earn a pizza treat... which i dun dare to eat much becoz of my stomach....
it just got better... i dun wan to be running to the toilet again...
Faith
12:31 am
Sunday, March 11, 2007
just got back from camp...
it was a short camp only started yesterday and it end today...
but i went into the camp on fri nite to prepare for the camp....
i really have to declare that i am old... and i feel so inflexible....
i cant even bend down to touch my toes...
and i already cannot make it after the 2 days camp somemore the camp is sleep on bed....
i enjoy making new friends thru this camp...
i think i have been seeing all these ppl for the past few years during this camp but i nv knew them or talk to them....
or perhaps for the past few years i have been very anti-social....
and the truth is for the past few years i have never like this camp...
and i drag going for the camp... i felt i am just wasting my time in the camp doing nothing and i also dunno what to do during the camp... every1 is super busy and i am super out of the place in the camp....
but this year i was thick skin enough to go and mix around plus this year my role in the camp was the running around job and i had fun...
beside that i learn quite some stuff that i had never noe....
i nv knew how to do inspection, what was expected during inspection...
how to report for duty and stuff...
and i was very brave to play the guitar during one of the worship session for 2 fast song when my skill is like so lousy and i think it sounds terrible but thank God the ppl are praising Him and whether the music sounds gd or off tune the ppl are still worshipping Him...
Faith
10:26 pm
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
wenz.... i was happily going to joyce's blog to see if she has updated and i saw the stitch pic and i am super sad....
coz u lost ur phone...u must be cursing and swearing at me now...coz i am sad not becoz of ur phone but becoz of my photo in ur phone...remember u took the photo for me when i was carrying the stitch....after begging that guy to take out the stitch frm the "box" to let me touch and later on demand for a photo shot wth that stitch....that photo is lost...and there goes my photo wth stitch...futhermore it was taken on my birthday....but i could not remember why we used ur hp to take picture when i had a camera with me on tat day....and stupid me... if i had use my camera i would have the pic...also if i have brought my hp earlier i would have use my own phone... this is so sickening....the other thing... when was the last time you have eaten sakae sushi?i seems to eat it 2 weeks ago...but i am craving for it...i have been eating home cook meals for the past 3 weeks which for the past 1 year i havent been eating becoz we dont cook at home and eat out daily...but my mum cant cook jap food....i wan to eat sushi... sakae or sakura also can....especially the buffet....wenz u wan to eat? ask kakia treat since he still owes us sakae buffet treat....but i doubt he got read so there goes our treat....i was suppose to go for JLTC meeting today...but i did not go in the end becoz i was not feeling well...and i went to see the doc....when i came home my younger bro was super kind and nice to me and i knew something was not right....than he started taking out his test paper and ask me to sign for him... and i noe why he treated me so well... he was afraid that he will not be allowed to go china this weekend wth mum and dad when dad sees his test results....so funny... but it simply shows that he is my brother.... can speak mandarin but cannot read and write in chinese.....than he proceed on to complain to me that one of the GB girl pat onto his back very hard as if she is hitting him....but after a whole 10 mins of description by him i still cannot figure out who the girl is...i dun usually mention my younger bro to the girls... but they know him becoz they have seen me wth him... and they like him and they like to talk to my bro when they see him in sch...i noe my bro dun like such attention becoz it has stop him from being naughty...he is being watch daily in sch... whatever things that he does in sch or he is neing punish will be found out by his sis very fast....and whahaha.... they are evidence i hold against him to threaten him to do things for me...but eventually i still betray him by telling my parents what happen to him in sch...and i think he really hates me for that...
Faith
12:47 am
Monday, March 05, 2007
i suddenly remembered i went kite flying on sat morning....
God was really good... He hold the rain...
there was this moment when all the girls tot we wont be flying kite anymore as droplets of rain drip down onto their tiny bodies....
this is the 2nd time i flew kite...
the 1st time was in china with my niece and nephews in china....
if u think they are small kids than you are wrong they are my age....
the field was super muddy and i regret wearing my adidas sneakers... i just wash them and they are super dirty again... somemore they are white in color...
but it was quite interesting....
kite flying is 1 thing that i have never tot of doing....
and the other thing the girls sang in the bus stop and on the bus....
but there are not much people in the bus except us and a group consisting 4 tourist....
Faith
7:24 pm
i had a extreme gathering at my house yesterday...
never had any massive gathering like this apart frm the birthday part i had 4 yrs ago...
i felt so lost touch wth crowds...
even thou they are at my house and they are my uncles, aunties and cousin...
they felt so distant to me...
perhaps not all.... my elder uncle's and 3rd uncle's children has always been coming to my house and play wth my bro...
melissa has always been coming to me to ask me to doll up for her...
but yesterday there were this ppl that i do not like to meet...
a particular aunt and uncle and a particular cousin....
taking abt that cousin...
i nv understand y i should greet her when she come into my house giving me a pissed off face...
and further more we are cousins so i dun see a point tat i should great her...
and who do u think u are... when u come to my house and i am eating wth ur sis...
becoz u came i have to stop eating and go away so tat there will be space for u to eat...
enough of my venting of anger....
i really felt that i needed God alot more than i tot i always needed...
i nv felt it was so difficult to love ppl whom i do not love...
becoz i try to avoid meeting ppl whom i do not love...
when i came face to face wth those ppl there was anger that just flowing out of me...
it was a timely reminder for me that unless i truely experience the unconditional love and receive the unconditional love i cannot love....
Faith
12:13 am
Saturday, March 03, 2007
i always felt that just becoz i am young i had alot of time...
things that i need to do i would tell myself there is time and i can wait....
but i am awaken this day....
when the timing has gone it has gone...
its like taking a train tat goes to a place once a year....
i may have all the time to wait but the fact is tat i have missed the train...
i wanted to visit my aunt the past few days...
and i keep telling myself i have time to visit her tml...
and my tml nv comes...
until finally i had time today to visit her...
i realise that she was already in the operation theater...
its not just any minor operation but a heart by-pass....
a woman whom i have spent more than 3/4 of my childhood with staying at her house....
whenever she goes travelling those days she nv fails to bring me along....
and the only thing tat i have done for her is just sending her a card thru my mum before her operation....
i did not even go down to visit her....
i had all the time to do things that i tot is impt yet i miss the most impt thing....
Faith
2:30 pm
Friday, March 02, 2007
i am tired...
i am tired of everything...
somwhow nothing seems right...
all i need is a long long rest...
whenever i am not feeling well physically i seems to be affected emotionally....
anyway went for job interview today at jurong island....
its been a year since i last went there....
and i did not miss that place at all...
was waiting at the jurong island check point for bus and was attack by so many mosquito...
plus i waited an hour before the bus arrive...
and i just dun seems to see any young people in tat area...
neither did i see any singaporean...
i am not trying to be bias but i had a very bad experience today there with a grp of malaysian guys....
and i was totally disgusted by the stuff they did....
anyway after a long wait plus a long walk i finally reach the place...
went for interview and becoz i am having runny nose plus a blood shot eye...
which i dunno why... and my eye kept tearing....
the interviewer tot that i am craving for a puff...
and determine that i am a smoker...
he kept asking me if i smoke even after several attemps of telling him i did not....
and he said... well, although there is smoking area in this plant but it is still very dangerous to smoke and we don't want to hire people who smoke....
Faith
3:51 pm
