Thursday, August 31, 2006

holiday just started last Friday for me but since the start to now today is the only day i rested. i kinda enjoy this rest. not only can i wake up late and the weather has been very gd for slping... it practically rain frm yesterday afternoon until now.... i dun feel good my throat is hurting, i am aching all over and i am having flu... i keep thinking over what the coordinator Lena has said over the debrief session yesterday... we are to be conscious of the words we speak becoz it is magnified many times when the kids hear us.... we may onli see ourselves as facilitators but to the kids we r teachers... i hope i have not shown the kids any bad examples or bad attitude of mine that they will pick it as a learning point... not onli for these kids that i will onli see there for 2.5 hr and nv see them again but more for the GB girls that i have been seeing over the past 2 yrs... my mood is like super bad today but it got better after meeting jiali, yiwen, joyce they all.... oh yes and i met jeffery today wth his friends at mos burger... its been a few years i guess since i last saw him... everytime we arrange to meet he nv show up....

yiwen you gotta thanks me for making the photo small... its a black day for me coz bad mood... my 3 buddies sense it? all dressed in black....somehow all the photos look the same.... thou the camera person is different....proudly taken by me.... yiwen is the focus.... it looks like joyce, celest, lin lin and jia li took the picture together and i superimpose in yiwen....

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

i went to the zoo today.... i cant even remember when was the last time i went to the zoo... at first i wanted to roam around the zoo after work... but after walking the trail route for 2 rounds plus the talking n facilitating i am just too tired... somemore i am all alone if i go back to the zoo coz all the ppl working there are not my friends.... 1st round was abt an hour trail where our coordinator let us familiar wth the route and give us some info of the animals so that we can do likewise when we bring the kids in so it will not just be a trip for pure doing of the workbooks by relating to the things in the zoo but also it will be a trip where they will learn more abt animals... thou it was 1 hr of walking but it was enjoyable as i look at all the animals i remembered adam name all the animals and there is no repeat at all... it just reminded me that God has created us to be of such gd memory, creativity and wisdom... or else adam wont be able to think of so many name wth no repeat of names or animal, furthermore every species of a particular animal has it unique name... I am realli so amazed by God's creation... i saw this rino that has red pertruding patches on its body and the reason the red patches where they becoz the rino has hurt itself and it will produce the red substance to aid the healing... it is so amazing....
the 2nd round of trail is 2.5 hr... it is energy demanding... the kids were better as compared to yesterday's maybe becoz i onli had 15 kids to handle today... but the kids today were very weak and phampered kind they practically cant walking but the trail requires alot of walking and the weather is hot... i was rather stress as this is my 2nd trail and there is a teacher following me thru out the trail and will evalulate me after the trail but i remember what cynthia told me dun be stress by teachers as they are also human... usually the newbie will onli get parent's helper but i so unlucky got teacher.... i almost lost my voice yesterday and i could not realli project my voice today but i did try my best and the kids could hear me but now i sound like a duck.... i thank God that it has it has been a beautiful trail thou little incident happen here and there and i thank God for the weather so great and it onli started to rain after we finish the trail... can u see the word "singapore zoo" the stamp is for re-entry to the zoo... the coordinator keep asking us to call our gf or bf down to date since we have a free entry... some people decided to go back into the zoo to have fun coz they are a group of friends working together and decided to have fun together... i went back becoz i dun have friends working wth me i am all alone and i am tired... good thing i did not stay becoz it started raining after that....
when back and siao wth my didi... since i got camera might as well take pic....

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

its the1st trail for me as a facilitator today.... i have nv felt so bullied by kids before thou handling kids is not a new thing to me.... the trail was at esplanade somewhere very near me but i am nv familiar wth the place.... it's so tired after the trail and my voice are 3/4 gone.... thou i had fun play wth this group of 21 p4 kids which i manage to bring them running around esplanade doing english math and science questions wthout losing any and finally brought them to merlion park and send them off the bus back to sch.... the whole 2 and a half hr i just had to try all ways to get the attention of the kids and i have to talk really loud so tat every single kid can hear me and i have to fight wth the noise of the surrounding... it was a very exciting experience becoz i have nv handle so many kids on my own, bringing them around and literately teaching them maths n science by giving them the experience and give them hint so that they will get the answers.... i had fun wth the kids... they were very cute... but i would have alot more fun and find them cuter if they were to be nicer to me but listening to me and not competing their voice wth mine when i am explaining what to do at every station... the last part when i brought them to merlion park... i was quite irritated by them already but i felt God impressed on my heart "isnt it what u are longing for to have the fruits of the spirit" the word patience appeared in my brain... but i kept saying God they are so irritating and they are like 1 big mass of kids all scattered along the path and they are not co-operating wth me at all i just feel like giving them a big big big scolding and show them that i am not so easily bullied by them i have been kind to them not becoz i am those that can be bullied.... God just calmed me down and i guess it is the divine plan of God... my hp rang... i had the fcbc thingy on my phone... and this head of joker frm the class is frm fcbc and he saw my phone thingy... he asked "cher cher u also frb fcbc ah?" and i said yes... frm than no he becoz very guai and becoz he is the head the whole troop of children also became very guai but that was like during the last 15 min of the trails.... after the whole day i still felt very bullied by the kids so so so bullied.... i would have cried if some1 were to ask me how i felt when i was super irritated wth the kids after enduring for like 2 hrs.... i felt like a tourist when i visited merlion park and wanted to take pic but i was alone... met yiwen for lunch and to buy stuff after the trail i told her i wan to take pic and make her accompany me to merlion park to take pic but as we were there i found out tat i am so blur i forgot to put in the memory card of my camera after i took it out yesterday and the in-camera memory was out of mermory so we could onli take 2 pic...

taken when taking the kids to merlion park.....

this picture was taken by yiwen when i met her for lunch and we went merlion park to take becoz i wanted to act tourist to self entertain and to entertain her....yw wanting to be friend of merlion and ask me to help her take......

Monday, August 28, 2006

have had diarrhea since sat night after dinner... but God was awesome... i took medication but it was of no use... and i havent really slept on sat... on sun moring before i leave home for church my tummy was still in discomfort and i prayed... while and i was well enough to go for SOL and attend service... when i came home i was extremely tired and i slept after eating bee hoon soup but was awaken becoz my tummy hurts again... but i was realli thankful that i could make it for lesson and service.... had diarrhea again but i believe that God is a healer... i prayed again and the very next thing i was healed and i have not taken any medication and had a very good night sleep... woke up at 5.30am today and went to send sharon off...

taken at kopitam at airport terminal 1....

look at our sleepy face at 6.45am....

Sunday, August 27, 2006

i am a hot bikini babe... see the camera is trying to snap me even when i am not looking at it... hey people who are staring at me i am looking back at u to show my appreciation... i simply love the attention....
wow.... this is my happy family... do u see people wearing hats and caps as a high fashion thing now... brother now u noe y its a high fashion thing... becoz we created the fashion... they follow us... i love to be the center of attention brother and be followed by people....

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Brother smile like me and stop looking up look at the menu and decide what to eat... we are going to have a nice yummy meal later.... i am drooling....

haiz... why are u all making us take photos... cant u see my eyes are on the cake and look no 1 is interested in taking the pic... hurry up with the celebration i just wan to eat the cake....

Whahaha... who says girls cannot ride a bike... i have proven that i can... *winks* quick people give me a clap of encouragement... i can do what you think only guys can achieve....

i went for a job interview today which i don't think will be successful becoz its a sale job and i make my stand clear that i cant work on sat and sun... weekends is where there will be crowds... anway my consideration was also the distance for the shop... its at holland V, in simple i am just lazy.... but its ok to not have job during holiday coz my SuperHero Dad says he will employ me if i realli cannot find job.... becoz i dun wan to go all the way just for interview so i arrange to meet up wth wai teng.... its a long while since we last meet up and thank you for the lunch treat.... its really good to see my pri sch friend to see that she is doing fine and how she is adapting in NUS....

Friday, August 25, 2006

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

my SuperHero, he is one important person of my life and he is like my everything... my SuperHero is not like those superhero we see in cartoon, big and muscular... my SuperHero is skinny but strong, small but powerful and handsome and cute... in short my SuperHero is 1 great MAN..... He is not 1 who will say how capable and wonderful he is nor will he do great and mighty things to show off so he will be known for the great things he had done... i always wanted him to say words to affirm me and show his care for me so that i noe he love me... but he had nv said any to me and i am always very envy and jealous when he said to my younger brother... but i soon realize the way he care for me is different becoz all of us are different... he always have to bear wth our complains tat he doesnt care abt us when he poured out his heart for us... he would wake me up every morning so i wont be late for sch, buy dinner for me when he know i am busy and forgot abt dinner... without me noticing my fav. ice lemon tea would be refilled into the fridge for me.... my room and the mess of books and stuff i throw around would be kept tidy and clean in place... from household chores to repairing work in the house you name it he will be able to do it.... He is simply my SuperHero... He is afraid of cockroaches himself yet whenever i see the pest and shout he will come to my rescue and catch the pest for me.... my SuperHero is none other than my dad....

Sunday, August 20, 2006

counting down.... 4 more days to the end of exams.... haha... actually it doesnt matter at all coz i havent been studying... wanted to spend my sat studying ended up using only 2 hrs to study and the rest of the time i have been eating, talking, playing and slping and all thanks to yw becoz she fang me fei ji half way thru the study session... i am amaze wth myself... cant wait for holidays thou i do not have any plans as to what to do during holidays... and sharon this is so bad... when my holiday starts you will be going off... i will be missing you... gal tell me when u r free from 25th to 27th so we can go out and play for another day before u leave...
Mrs cherry punk, in celebration of your birthday, your W-inds sign is up wth your fav gigi.... i noe it should be posted up yesterday but i did not have any time... enjoyed your celebration?
had a family gathering.... family gathering are cool.... you get to see all the cousins and ppl that you dun see often or talk to often... the sad thing is every1 will be bring along their bf or gf to show and ask where is yours.... while its alright i do not need 1 at the moment so cousins if you r reading next time dun ask me abt mine and tell ur parents too... if there is 1 he will appear at the gathering too if there is none by asking also wont make him appear... another gathering today... frm my mum's side... guess i will stay wth my young little cousins... all the older 1 will be busy accompanying their partners and end up saying i am anti-social... <----(siew yen hear it this sentence is for you de always stay wth ur darren than say i anti-social dun wan to talk to you )

Friday, August 18, 2006

decided to take a 2 days break from studying to do other stuff that is as urgent.... sometimes to feels quite good to study once in a while it gets ur brain moving.... just saw a email frm a friend as i share avt how God has bless me and my friend ask if there is no blessing and miracle seen will i still choose to serve Him wth all my heart... i could not say yes at the moment... doing things is always wth a string attach i guess... but in fact when u look beyond the surface it can be done... becoz when u choose to serve u nv think of how God will bless u when u serve Him and u will not demand how u wan God to bless u... u just wan to bless Him....

tot i could go bangkok wth my parents in sep as it happens to be during my sch holidays... my parents booked their air tickets very long ago than when i told them i wanted to go yesterday they said i cannot go as the airtickets require 2 person to travel together for a cheaper rate... than some ppl came along to say they wanted to go and dun mind taking SIA and i was so happy that i could go bangkok and shop... but eventually they did not go becoz of the price of the airtickets.... there go my bangkok shopping spread.... =(
i am missing bangkok... the food, shopping and manicure....
maybe my parents can stuff me into their baggage and send me over by cargo.... =p
whaha.... i simply love bangkok... perhaps i should learn to speak thai to the advance level and maybe this will be the land where God will use me to serve the nation....

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

just some simple question to for all to think....
what are you living your life for?
what are the things that you are chasing after?

we live our life often thinking that we have fulfill alot and have live a colourful and spendid life...
but at the end of the day all the colourful and spendid things we have done is it purposeful and meaningful... sometimes i also wonder have i been wasting my time away when i could have spend the time studying or resting but i used it to play computer games and watch tv when all the while i have been complaining that i do not have enough time to rest and to study...
i have been spending my afternoon studying yesterday and today thou i may not have done as much as i should but it have been a fruitful time and i started wondering if i have not meet some1 to study in the library what would i be doing... will i be so discipline to go to the library n do nth but study... i guess i would be at home watching tv and meddling wth my computer.... and i will always regret when i see time flying away and i have not done what i shld have done... don't regret later... have a check on ur life if u r living a purposeful life if u have not been living it than start doing it NOW....

last but not least THANK YOU GUYS FOR STUDYING WITH ME THIS 2 DAYS....
it has really help me to study instead of doing other fun but useless business..... THANK YOU...

Monday, August 14, 2006

A song to proclaim the transformation Jesus has done in my life...

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Friday, August 11, 2006

Monday, August 07, 2006

God sees the heart of His people...
when you tot u have sacrifice alot of God u will see His blessing coming back to you in manifolds... am very busy this season and it is to the extend that i do not even seems to have time to study.... what have i been spending my time in? as i think i was actually spending all my time going for GB stuff, church stuff, meeting people and going for training..... some1 ask me "y ru not studying for ur test and instead going for all this activity" when i was grumbling that i am going to fail my tests already as i havent study and i totally do not know what the module is abt... my friend continued with " this is ur choice since u have chosen to do what u have done and not spend the time studying instead than tats the price u have to pay"....
in my mind i am thinking so does it mean if i fail u will say serve me right for doing other things and activities than studying....
but God realli is merciful....
even thou in the end i only spend a day studying instead of the fri plus weekend tat i suppose to have for studying... God has blessed me in the test... which realli wth my own strength it is impossible... even thou the result is not the top in the class but it is already beyond my strength... previously when i onli study last min i would usually fail or just pass but now i got a very very gd pass.... praise the Lord....

Sunday, August 06, 2006

Pastor started his message today with colossians 1:23-24
"Now I rejoice in what was suffered for you, and I fill up in my flesh what is still lacking in regard to Christ's afflictions, for the sake of his body, which is the church. I have become its servant by the commission God gave me to present to you the word of God in its fullness"
saying abt serving God with a ministry that counts is filling up the suffering of Christ....
and as i read thru the 2 verses... infact in my mind i was thinking apostle Paul was crazy to have said that.... y would we rejoice in suffering.... but later as pastor preach thru and i understand y... but i dunno if i will do likewise or feel likewise....
Am i willing to fill up the suffering?
Will i tell God that i want to give Him a ministry that counts?
is every single area of my life completely given to Him?
perhaps if this questions are asked before yesterday i would have answered yes without thinking.... n i guess the answer is becoz i do not know what it meant to say that....
but now i realli cant answer... i dunno if i am willing to do that, i dunno if i will wan to give a ministry that count and i dun think my life is completely given to Him...

Saturday, August 05, 2006

today passed so fast for me so many things that have happen....
2am slp
6am wake up
7am at stamford for open house (GB stall selling fish)
12pm packing up to leave stamford
1pm lunch with parents
2pm slp
3pm wake up
3.30pm leave home
4pm SLTC
6pm dinner
7pm tribe meeting
11.30 home


something tat kept my brain thinking and pondering on even at the end of my day.... my training today...

1st was the structural experience waiting at mac...
i went in sitted down n seems like dazing... but actually i was recapping psalm 1 in my mind...
i tot it will be something very scary after some hint by miss lee... seems tat i got the hint wrong but gd preparation... than say pin asked me abt waiting for ppl and i said that i am not a person tat likes to wait and i suddenly realised i have already success in waiting for 20min wthout even realising... than i learned something frm say pin... when there is something that i am unhappy wth rather than scolding and blaming the person that makes me upset i should express my feeling of how what the person did has affected me so it is not like i am targeting against the person...
2nd was teaching how to reflect and debriefing of the structural experience...
since time is life than how should we live a life worthy of the Lord....
to do His will....
what then is His will?
for us in FCBC it is the G12 vision...
to build our 12.... at the end of the whole thing pastor challenged us to use the 1 yr to focus on building our 12 and not be affected/distracted by relationship....
3rd was putting what we learn abt how to reflect into application... we are to reflect on Dr edlin message...

if it wasnt that i was stress seeing ppl memorise psalm 1 and i was anticipating something scary to happen what will i be doing during the 20 mins? will i be wasting it?

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

having 2 test tml and i have not study neither do i not understand anything from the 2 module at all.... i became more and more anxious as seconds by seconds the time flies away...but my mind and body was already too tired to concentrate i only feel like sleeping... when i woke up it was already 3am another 5hrs before i need to leave for sch for the 2 tests.... i was realli realli anxious now... there are still alot of things to memorise and figure out... feeling frustrated i was lost and do not even noe where to start studying.... then in the gentle spirit of God reminded me with His words in philippians 4:6-7 "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanks giving, let ypur request be made known to God which surpasses all understanding, will guard your heart and mind through Christ Jesus" and i started praying for God to give me the wisdom and ask that He would be my strength... and i would be able to even glorify Him with my results... as i prayed i felt the peace of God coming into my heart and directing me... i finally manage to settle down and studied by doing the examples... and the problems that i could not figure out in the day i manage to figure it out... I noe that Holy Spirit is my master teacher, without Him reminding me to pray and with Him coming to give me understanding i would not be able to study....

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