Monday, March 05, 2007
i had a extreme gathering at my house yesterday...
never had any massive gathering like this apart frm the birthday part i had 4 yrs ago...
i felt so lost touch wth crowds...
even thou they are at my house and they are my uncles, aunties and cousin...
they felt so distant to me...
perhaps not all.... my elder uncle's and 3rd uncle's children has always been coming to my house and play wth my bro...
melissa has always been coming to me to ask me to doll up for her...
but yesterday there were this ppl that i do not like to meet...
a particular aunt and uncle and a particular cousin....
taking abt that cousin...
i nv understand y i should greet her when she come into my house giving me a pissed off face...
and further more we are cousins so i dun see a point tat i should great her...
and who do u think u are... when u come to my house and i am eating wth ur sis...
becoz u came i have to stop eating and go away so tat there will be space for u to eat...
enough of my venting of anger....
i really felt that i needed God alot more than i tot i always needed...
i nv felt it was so difficult to love ppl whom i do not love...
becoz i try to avoid meeting ppl whom i do not love...
when i came face to face wth those ppl there was anger that just flowing out of me...
it was a timely reminder for me that unless i truely experience the unconditional love and receive the unconditional love i cannot love....
Faith
12:13 am
