Friday, May 04, 2007
alot of thoughts running thru my mind... still feeling totally lost after much thoughts...
it is something that is beyond feeling... the fact is simply that i am a loser in everything....
even after trying my best...
i still cant do a simple thing... when everyone elses can...
i have tried but anyone can just comment tat "i have not seen u trying" so whats the point...
i dun wan to prove myself and it doesnt make a different even if i prove myself nths changes...
after all who am i trying to please?
i always tot chocolates and sweet things are best to smoothes bad and unhappy mood...
i tried to prove if it does help for me...
for that moment it does.. especially when there is so many sweet things plus it is super cheap and nice...
but i guess i just cant escape from the reality... after eating and the sweet feeling is gone everything is back to normal and i still feel the same...
i am just a loser trying to hide from reality and feels like a winner which makes me a bigger loser...
Faith
5:26 pm
