wenz please take care of urself and get well soon... Thank you Cynthia... i like the gift u got from Greece and thank u for tat timely hug...
stupid me... i actually hurt my fingers yesterday while i was trying to lock the door... and the whole piece of skin on my finger came out... blood just flow and din stop... but the funny thing is now the skin like grown back already and the there are like blood below the skin... ok super digusting... but the picture of my hand is quite alrite... than i put a super cute snoopy plaster on my finger yesterday... and i had to change like 2 plaster within 10 mins... tats the amount of blood... but i think i am like super happy to be hurting myself because of the cute plaster... lol... i am weird...super digusting and i couldnt help thinking abt hurting myself again when i open the door today...
on my ride home from church today i was just counting the amount of years that i had been a christian... it took me a long while to actually realise that i have been a christian for 3 and a half years and it went back to abt 8 yrs ago when i first come across the gospel....
in all my 3 yrs plus being a christian i went thru difficult time with my parents and friends... their objection and stuff and i walk thru them with God and never had i wanted to give up... but now i guess to many ppl it seems alot easier to walk thru this crisis with Him but i found it real hard and i am on the verge of giving up... people claim to understand what i am going thru and tell me what i am going thru is nothing and whatever they claim i am... to me all these word are just noise because u nv been thru it how would u noe what i am feeling... saying is all easier unless u went thru it urself... life in these aspect has always been smooth sailing for u ppl... i wish i could just tell u ppl ur words hurt... give a thought for my feeling... i choose not to talk not because i am in th wrong tats y i din wan to talk... i choose not to talk because i felt that there is realli nothing tat i could say... no matter how much i said u wont understand and i dun wan to add trouble to u since u wont understand anyway...
thankful thou for ppl who doesnt probe me further... simple gesture i am touched... not that i dun want just that i cant... maybe i had not try but its all between me and my saviour... its been 3 weeks and i know i cant avoid anymore... i am trying just give me more time... forcing me doesnt help me it just makes me want to run away further...
Faith
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struggling in a cruel world...
hoping that one day i will emerge victorious...
